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  • #ToHER: My Polysexual Ass Needed Your Love

    In this letter #toHER, Uyi writes to her friend turned lover, Ayo. She wants Ayo to know why the last nine months together have been the happiest time of her life.

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    We bring to you letters written by women to women they love, miss, cherish or just remember. To celebrate the support women continue to show each other, this is #ToHER.

    From: The woman who can鈥檛 believe she found love

    To: Ayo, her lover

    Dear Ayo,

    I鈥檓 writing this letter because beyond being my lover for the last nine months, you鈥檝e also been my friend. So many times, you look over and catch me staring at you in disbelief. I still can鈥檛 believe my luck. Well, our luck, because I’m such a catch too. Ayo, I hope you read this feeling as lucky as I do sharing our connection.

    It鈥檚 been nearly nine months since I dragged myself out to meet you for drinks. The full moon was in Scorpio. That meant something to me because Twitter astrologists talk about the potency of the moon to attract lovers. I don’t necessarily believe in these things, but I didn鈥檛 want to cancel our date for the third time. I didn鈥檛 want my anxiety to get in the way again. And I鈥檓 glad I didn鈥檛 miss out on finding my best friend.

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    People talk about falling in love the moment they see, but I fell in love with your voice, Ayo. The way we talked at the restaurant made me feel safe. Magic was born from hearing you speak. Your voice was warm and sweet. We very quickly became such good friends, I could have sworn I鈥檇 known you for years. 

    Being around you made me feel safe. You met me at a time when my polysexual ass was being kicked in my different relationships. But you stuck around and made me feel so loved. I couldn鈥檛 imagine not being more than friends with you, Ayo.聽

    I鈥檝e never spoken to anyone as softly as I have about you. My friends say that when I first met you, I spoke about you like air. I would rant about all my problems and end them with, 鈥渢hen Ayo showed up鈥︹ They could hear the peace in my voice every time. It was like I鈥檇 been holding my breath, but every time you show up, I can finally take a deep breath. I鈥檝e never told you this, but you got me through the depression I was fighting inside. You saved me in so many ways.

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    We both tend to rush into things, wanting to hold back from complicating them, but Ayo, it鈥檚 been nine months, and I鈥檝e felt at peace with my decisions because you make me feel so loved. I remember the days leading up to the first time we both said “I love you” aloud. It was perfect because we spent weeks trying not to move too fast.

    My favourite part about living with you is our routines. They keep me sane because. I can鈥檛 remember what life was like before watching you cook for us after work, or planning cute dates together. I don鈥檛 know what it felt like listening to music without you or watching you wiggle every time we sit on the couch to eat. Those are the moments when I feel most alive.聽聽

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    Most of all, I love how you depend on me. The way you rush in for a hug whenever I鈥檓 home. You talk about your day like you鈥檝e been waiting for the one person who truly cares about you, and it makes me feel like the most important person in the world. Ayo, I could go on and on about how my polysexual ass loves doing life with only you, but the hundred 鈥淚 love yous鈥 we share daily say it all. 

    My final words to you are a rendition of the love Shakespeare鈥檚 Romeo meant for Juliet: All the things I love about you, Ayo 鈥 the sweet words that I have the privilege to share with you 鈥 hopefully, it鈥檚 until my last breath.

    Thank you for all the love you鈥檝e brought into my life.

    Love,

    Uyi

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