A few days ago, I got pulled into an interesting conversation about stress eating. Adelayo* (26) shares how pressures at work led to her developing a poor coping habit鈥 binge eating. She also opens up about how maintaining this habit and keeping it a secret adds to her stress.
This is Adelayo’s story as told to Betty
I like to think of myself as a foodie. I love the experience of eating a meal, from the textures to the visual presentation, but when I binge eat, it鈥檚 never from a place of enjoyment.
Growing up, I never had a problem with food. Like I said, I enjoy food, but I鈥檝e always had really good control of my appetite. I ate a fairly balanced diet for a Nigerian and worked out regularly. But when I moved to Lagos in 2024, everything changed. The pressures of my job have made it hard to manage stress in a healthy way.
I work as a video editor, and my deadlines can be pretty demanding. The stress from work has now led me to overindulge in food. The first time I made a big mistake at work was in March 2024. I had missed an important deadline, and my manager dragged me during a meeting in front of our entire team. I felt really embarrassed. When I got home that day, I ordered a pizza and a plate of rice and ate till my stomach hurt. I was bloated for days after, and I weirdly relished the painful feeling of my overfull stomach.
Weirdly enough, it worked鈥 at least on the surface. I didn鈥檛 mess up at work for months. But then, in September, I got in trouble again after making another mistake. That night, I ate two packs of Oreos, three plates of rice from different restaurants, and downed a litre of juice. At some point, I had to throw up because my body literally couldn鈥檛 take it. I felt disgusted. But I also felt like I deserved to feel that way. I wasn鈥檛 doing well at work, and in my head, this was my consequence.
It鈥檚 been like that ever since. In December, I ordered five packs of food from a popular restaurant. I didn鈥檛 even eat them because I was hungry, I ate them because I felt bad about missing a brief. The next morning, my friend dropped by unannounced. She saw all the empty food packs and asked if I鈥檇 had people over. I lied and said yes. What else could I say?
Since the start of this year, I鈥檝e been having at least two binge-eating episodes a month. It’s getting harder to ignore. I can barely afford the food, and I鈥檝e gained noticeable weight, which has people asking questions. But no one sees me eat like this because I don鈥檛 do it around others. I live alone, which makes it easy to hide鈥攆or now.
Still, I can feel the secret getting heavier, literally and emotionally. The anxiety of being found out has triggered even more episodes. It鈥檚 a vicious cycle I don鈥檛 fully understand, and if I鈥檓 being honest, I鈥檓 not even sure I鈥檓 ready to stop. I鈥檓 currently saving to see a therapist, hoping that talking to someone might help me untangle all of this. Until then, I鈥檓 carrying this quiet, painful, embarrassing secret alone.
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